You know that dumb game that your kids made you play? Would you rather have pizza or vegetables to eat for the rest of your life? Would you rather have no TV or no radio? Yadda yadda yadda.
That dumb game and that dumb country song are literally life right now. For the love could it have been anything besides a country song??
1. Would you rather have spring break for 2 weeks or just 1 week? well this year - 2020 - just 1 would have been sufficient.
2. Would you rather have car rider line duty in the rain or no car rider line duty in the sunshine? Rain. For sure.
3. Would you rather have very little chances to go potty or all the chances all day long? Very little.
4. Would you rather be with your dog at home all day long or worry about your dog all day long while you're at work? Well...be with him of course. But he would make a great school pet :)
5. Would you rather have your daughter homeschooling her last semester of senior year or 3.5 hours away doing on campus schooling? On Campus For Sure. She is being gypped. And so are we.
6. Would you rather be social or not be social? This social distancing is working out for me. No doubt. But even I miss my little people and even some big people :)
7. If you had to social distance where would you be - home or not home? Well NOT HERE! I've been trying to move to Montana for YEARS!
8. Would you rather go back to school April 6th or indefinitely? April 6th for sure.
So it's official. We will not return to school this year. I will not get to open car doors and wave cars on in car line. I will not get to meet the individual needs of nearly 50 children each day. I will not get to laugh with them. Learn about them. Learn from them...learn with them. I've had some of these kids since they were in kindergarten. They are headed to 3rd grade next year. And I am not ready. I need them 2 more months. Some of them I will get to love on and learn from for a year or two more. But we still didn't have a proper good-bye.
Grief comes in many stages. No matter the stage, it is still grief. Denial. Sadness. Anger. Acceptance. Trust me...if anyone knows the stages of grief it is me - the wife of an Army husband.
So yes. I will miss this. I will miss life before COVID-19. I will miss hearing of my daughter's daily shenanigans via FaceTime. I will miss holding my bladder until. I will miss stop sign duty. I will miss the smell of a school (that's an acquired smell). I will miss being a public school teacher that LOVES her job (JOY).
And yes I will miss this. This time of social distancing. This time of the unknown. This time of rest. Somehow. Someway. I will miss this. Whatever THIS is.